From Flannery O’Connor’s Prayer Journal
I love that when I read this prayer, I can feel it.
There is a palatable sense of longing and brutal honesty about self. O’Connor is painfully aware that the battle of life is fought on the battlefield of our loves, and what we love most will eclipse everything else.
“effort at artistry in this rather than thinking of You and feeling inspired with the love I wish I had. Dear God, I cannot love Thee the way I want to. You are the slim crescent of a moon that I see and my self is the earth’s shadow that keeps me from seeing all the moon… what I am afraid of, dear God, is that my self shadow will grow so large that it blocks the whole moon, and that I will judge myself by the shadow that is nothing. I do not know You God because I am in the way.”
Flannery O’Connor, A Prayer Journal
O’Connor also recognizes that prayer has the power to reshape our loves and thus reorient our lives.
Hence, when prayer wanes the trajectory of life shifts.